Ruth's Personal Statement
Like most of us, I struggled through my childhood without much guidance. My parents were young and in their own states of confusion, and as a family we had no spiritual framework or practice. I was acutely aware of the pain around me, but I didn’t know how to heal it. I had an innate sense of reverence for the world, and had some profound mystical experiences as a young child, but I had no one who could tell me how to understand them or make use of them. I turned to reading and writing as a way of making sense of the world. Poetry was my first spiritual path, and I followed it all the way to graduate school.
After I got my M.F.A. in Creative Writing in 1985, I moved to San Francisco and got a job as an AIDS educator, a job which deeply stretched and challenged me. Working at the intersection of sexuality, life and death both broke and opened my heart. So did my seven-year relationship with a chronically ill partner, to whom I ultimately donated a kidney. After winning a major award and publishing my first book of poems in 1996, I was fortunate to get a tenure-track university teaching job. Although I loved teaching, I soon knew that I also needed to keep working with people in more essential ways. I left Cal State Fresno one year before I would've gotten tenure and became a self-employed healer, determined to keep exploring the personal growth, healing and spiritual paths that called to me. Along the way, I got a Ph.D. in Transpersonal Psychology, and also wrote and published three more books of poems and a memoir. During these years I experienced some huge changes and big losses in my personal life: I grappled with the devastation caused by the mental illness and addictions of close family members; I lost a beloved mentor; I moved cross-country - and, through the shattering, made even deeper contact with my inner teachers.
Writing has always been a way for me to grapple with life on earth, and it has served me well in that capacity. But in order to create the life I truly wanted to live, I needed to go much deeper into energetic and psychospiritual healing practices - both as client and practitioner. Then, after nearly a decade in private practice, I realized that my work doesn't end with helping people heal. After (and along with) the healing comes the continued challenge of conscious evolution! That's why I created Evolutionary Support - a framework that allows me to weave together all the paths I've found most inspiring, healing and freeing throughout my life. I believe that wherever you are on your growth trajectory, these tools can help you go further, go deeper, and feel more joy. I look forward to sharing them with you!
To our co-evolution -
Ruth
To say what or where we came from has nothing to do with what or where we came from. We do not come from there any more, but only from each word that proceeds out of the mouth of the unnamed. And yet sometimes it is our only way of pointing to who we are.
- W. S. Merwin